Tuesday 31 January 2012

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties

. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship

. The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?  

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
 
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
 
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.  

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

  Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Sunday 29 January 2012

Reply

Did not really expect i wait ..
Well... I told you more than three times that i am waiting..
What make you think i am joking?
hahaha... jk la..
( as no one really take my words seriously )

Let be the joker ... HAHAHA...

Saturday 28 January 2012

28.1.2012

What to write ? Thinking........

Actually that day ( gastric's day ),
I back office to send out all those confirmations plus the discussion with my dear senior.
During the discussion , i only realized that she intend to let me alone for this client ( FYE 2011) .
First thing in my mind is ... OMG!!
This time ... NO I C ...
E partner is the most difficult partner to handle..
I am the only one to handle his review points .. How to handle/..
My mood gone.. However, obviously cannot tell her all of this..
What i did..was just keep smiling.. hahahahahahahaha...
took cab straight to client place... ( starving ......)


On my way , i cannot stop thinking... keep thinking.....
ended up with no conclusion...
I discover that no matter how hard i think.. ended up still need to do..
So what for to think ?
Just do it ... Don know how to do ? ASK lo ....
No point Emoing...

Then i just do what ever i cn de...
But on that moment, i really feel lik i left alone...
HAHAHAHA.... subsequently , i think actually not bad also ...
Do own thing... cn concentrate ... no interruption... more controllable..
Then i start to plan... plan to meet the deadline... So just do as per plan..


OK... Back to my title.. ( 28/1/2012)
A nice day to remember..
Even though i am not so happy on that day ...
Reason? i also duno ... just feel lik empty lo..
Lik duno wat the hell am i doing..
What the meaning of life.. Non stop thinking..
Somemore the facebook gt so many emo post..
Make me think further... Keep thinking..
hahahahaha...

As i said, yesterday i should go for the farewell d.
But in the afternoon , my mum called to inform she cooked..
So .. so obvious.. i need to reject and go home eat.
Actually i cn just meet them for dinner and treat e food that my mum cook as supper..
But .. i think no need ... as i got no mood to act as well .
Used to be alone le... duno what to say when meet so many people..
So now is my turn to improve my social skill.. i know.
Its time to improve.....


At night.. u ... ya... YOU ....
Whole day only left my two sentences..
Halo ... but going out ad..
Walao.... if lik that... better if you not reply and comment..
hahaha... joking la...
Just telling e truth ... .


I keep waiting while working... on the bus... taking dinner...
But yet... YOU... left nothing for me..
ahahahaha... too much ad... i know...
So i posted this on my fb ..
Its time to end..
Who know you suddenly online and msg me.. 
Then i intend to do nothing... as i busy with something..


Then the surprise came.. 
YOU ... CALL...
Wa... call me from malaysia..
Some more not missed call ... is really call....
After that ... follow by the 50 minutes chat..
No bad.. i really need to say thanks..
Ricky ... Thanks alot.. Perhaps i think too much ..
As you treat all your friend in such a way .. just a normal caring..
Just i think abit much .. Anyway.. let it be...
I still want to thank you...

Lastly .... Mz take k ... and good luck in your job application..
Hope to meet you ASAP....
Chill and cheers... ( as i always not...)


Monday 23 January 2012

Chu yi for the Water dragon year 2012

My first Chinese new year in my adult life..
It is quite boring actually ..
Wake up early in the morning..
Settle everything then go out to my mum work place.
Sit at there.. do nothing..??
Got la...I bring along my laptop ( company de la)
I plan to online whole day ... ( wasting time i know >.< )
As i really got no idea what to do ..
At first i think of watching movie in cinema..
But , there is no Cantonese show available..( all being translated... )not nice..
Singapore show really suck d la.. ( As i only support hong kong as i always do ..)

First time in my life ... waiting my mum for such a long hours. 
I think this is time for me to do wat ever she did for me during my ACCA life..
( As she always wait for me .. ) So now my turn ...
No harm d..As i got nothing to do at home also .. 
 ahahaha/...
E manager gave me angpao ...
Wahahaha... lik tat also got angpao..
Never expect lo... good luck in my 2012... ^^


Thanks for replying my msg ya ...
Its really cost you alot .. i know..
For me .. still ok .. as every 5 oversea msg i sent, i get 50 oversea msg for free..
So i am ok ... wahahaha...

I think this kind of simple life more suit me lo..
I really dun really lik to social..
e more people, e more i will kept silent..
I think u should know that..
I only can talk alot when one to one..
As this will be more secure..
hahahahhaha..... Anti social .. ( so call) .

Friday 20 January 2012

Happy CNY

Hi,
Its Chinese new year...
First of all , be careful on your way to and from your home town ya.
Thank for online and chat with me ..
Even you are not purposely do so . But atleast you did msg me when ever you on.
Hahaha..

Ok..
Actually last night if you did not online, ( 20.1.2012)
I think i will emo emo lo..
Then i will not disturb u .. until u msg me ..
I really think alot heh..
I know... ahahahhaha

This Chinese New Year...
I think will be abit boring d.
Just finish house keeping...Quite easy as not much thing..
while wating my mum finish work ..i update abit my blog..


Remember that day u say i will be emo emo seriously within those day u r offline?
I really thinking of that..What am i going to do in those period?
Not working.. nothing to do at home..Go out also sien
Initially think of chatting v u d during this few days..
Too bad that you not able to online.. hahahahaha...


My social life really suck huh??
Actually not really , just because all my fren back mys ..
Only left me here.
So have to find some one to chat also difficult.
Bt at last u also manage to online a while ( on and off )
Really happy lo... ( me terrible hor?!)

So now every day i listen to My Fm d Kai Xin Guo Nian
Make me full of positive energy..
hahahaha....

Nows aday really nothing to write ..
Why? Why ??Why ??
My writing skill need to be improve ad..
Got nothing to express ad..

 Nah.. post one photo from Bosco.. ( e latest!!)
Wish you Happy CNY and all e best in applying job
STAY HEALTHY & STAY HAPPY !!!...^^

Tuesday 17 January 2012

End of day 17.1.2012

Few more days to go.. CNY is just round the corner.
It is my first CNY after i start work
That kind of feel really difference.

Last time when still a student, always hoping its to come ( as no class.. ahahahah )
Now, Duno how to say
Totally dun have tat kind of feel of celebrating it

Reason? ( as per below) 
Mum will be working, can not take leave.
Me, alone at home duno what to do .
May be will back office.. Work .. keep working.
I believe next next CNY , my mum no longer need to work ^^
( as i expecting a PR soon )
I know the Singapore Government have try to lower down the number of PR
Yet, chances are there..( so stay POSITIVE !!!)

Yesterday Yip say planning to come here in May..
Straight to the point, i think of u .
ahhaahahah... I think how good you e one saying ... with a more certain period to come here..
Chill ya... not to mean any thing .. ahahahah.. as i really a good thinker.. ^^

Hmm.. ok la... better dun say so much on this issue..
Later say i force u ... not good not good.. heeeeeeeeeee
Let write something else..


What to write leh ..( think think think think)
Ouya..got it.. let me emo emo awhile ba..

Current this client when we did for the audit for the FYE 2010, intotal 5 of us..
Really enjoy that time as really feel lik some one is supporting u .. as u r not alone.
Now, ended up me alone.. Haiz.,
Alone in cab, in e audit room , on the way to MRT station..
Remind me of those day with them ... even i always keep silent .. ahahhaah ( as they r NOISY ..)


Haiz.. 22 years old le.. really old le..
Need to plan my career abit..
I told my caring senior ( assistant manager going to be in months time), i aim to be semi senior this year end..
Can i make it? hmm... i really hope i can..
I need to get my CPA, MBA.. alot of "A" behind my name..

Actually i really enjoy study life.. being as a student, i can control everything.
Now.. audit life.. all are uncertain.. Risk every where.
Hate this kind of life.. Duno what will happen next..
Always in the guessing mode.. haiz...

Fail to plan... plan to fail ..
i not so agree with this already ..
as u not able to plan .. all out of plan..
when u plan for plan A, please expecting for Plan B to be used.. or Plan C instead..
Haiz.. Why waste time to plan..
As u say let it flow..
either flow toward or flow away ..
All fake ... just do it when u r requested..
No is not an option... fail is not an option as well
Walao.. then what you expect?
Cannot say no, can not fail..
You really tot superman mie... i really need to sing Jay chow d Superman cannot fly..


Life do not take two.. I AGREE..
So think twice when you make any decision..
But the thing is no time for you to think..
Even you gt time,  more u think , more u scare.. as u start to think a lot..
Think of all kind of possibilities... ended up achieve nothing..
this is what i learn from my past experience..

So now, i just do what ever my first decision is..
Even it is wrong, just let it be..
As learn from mistake.. haahhaha
( start talking non senses... hheeeeeeeeeeeee...)

I sure u r confused by now.. ahahahahah
I really write as per my mind, do not think much ..
As i really need to express out my feeling after two days rushing of job..

Hahahahahahhaa.....fuh.... release...
tomorrow start again.. Audit life..
( am i scaring u ? no right?..)
perasan jor.. ok la... until now first ba..

U .... ( who ?! who?! ...)
U la.. who else...
make sure u take k.. i will start nagging on you everyDAY..
As this is one of my daily standard procedures..

Good 9 ^^V

Sunday 15 January 2012

Reply

Hi, Thank for the updated information.
Let start.. as i do not have much time left.

First of all ,
When i read you seem lik changing your mind to stay in malaysia first to get feel of wat is audit all about,
I suddenly feel sad, as i said before, i really expecting you to be here soon .
If you stay in malaysia , so diff to meet leh,..

Luckily this kind of mindset did not last for long.
I think of i should not be so self fish ..
Well, its time to answer your questions.

I can not advise you on the IA or EA as i dun really know what is happening in IA.
So, cn tell you , both also need to travel .
As one more on system checking and the others is figure wise.
Depend on which you prefer.

When you signed e contract, you r bonded for one year. plus any notices period you r subjected to /
After the bond, you r the permanent staff. As you can leave whenever you lik after the notice period.
Normally there will not be any probation period.
So, think twice if you really wan to join .
Because it need to compensate if you left within the one year.
( sound demotivated? abit ..  as i initially also looking very hard to the bond end)
For your info, my bond will be ended in Feb 2012. ( Soon ... ^^ )
Well, i have decided to stay after i transferred team.

I think you can try mys co first ( even i not willing to say so .. )
But since it is good for you , no harm..
As long as suit you , ok ad..
I think for mys BIG 4 no bond is subjected to .
So you cn try and have a feel of it ..
Even cn leave if you really dun lik it.

As you say your intention to Sing not mainly for working ...
Bt For tai chi instead..
So i think you better try in MYS.,.
I really do not wish to c any bad thing happen on you..
( do not take risk ... as you r not afford to )

Chances to meet was delay ...
Well .. its sad bt at least still chances still there..
As you always say.. stay positive.. so POSITIVE.. !!

Just lik my previous status..
Good thing deserve to be waited.
So ... I WAIT.. as i always do.. ^^

Friday 13 January 2012

HAIZ... this client ...
Got so many issue stuck during interim..
How to settle during Final ?!


This peak sure die gao gao..
Can i pull out myself..?!

Hais... So fast.. one week gone..
Next week back the previous client to do FYE 2011..
What kind of life is this..
Keep on working and working..

HAHAHAHA... SHOULD NOT BE SO NEGATIVE.. !!

be Positive!! I KNOW... hahahahaha ^^
This weekend , date v work again.. 
Sien ... >< !!


Thursday 12 January 2012

THanks

Thanks for the updating .

Well, for me.. U really ...
Do not know how should i put it..
hahahahahaha...


Beside thanks... also thanks.. ^^
I now really speechless le..
Lik duno what to write..
Well .. do not worry ...
It will  be continued. for sure..


ONE thing i mz remind you everyday is
TAKE K !!!!!

I lik e fish in the  blog..
It look cute and fun to play .. hahaahhaah... ^^
Childish !!! haahhaha

Wednesday 11 January 2012

Reaction?

What should i write?
After v meet ar?
Actually ... i feel shock d lo.. after you told me you say did not even c me.. -.-!!

You quite funny also d lo..
Keep on talking about some funny stuff..
Any how la.. not bad to have a first talk with you ..

That day quite rush d ..
After convo need to meet v my frend as i seldom back malaysia.
c.. how busy am i .. hhahahah... fully booked when i back malaysia.

Subsequently .. is you the one always leave comment on my emo post lo.
I never thought of having daily chat v u lik now d..
It really surprises..
As i said.. when some thing taken from you , be prepared for something special to be given..
Thanks..


hmm...Just now wan to share with you this one..
Sorry ya. i not good in photo taking..
NOT nice !!




Waiting for your blog... hahaha...

hmmm

Really ?
Waiting for me to update?
I tot you got nothing to ask ...


Hahaha...
ok la..
You did not owe me any thing. so no need to compensate the loss of that day ..
Just that remember to take k your self.. THats it !! ^^


until here first ba.. abit busy .. 
Sorry ya.. ^^

Saturday 7 January 2012

New update!

Really got no idea what the purpose of writing blog..
Hahahaha..
Now i feel lik updating my status in the facebook ..
A daily task..
( dun laugh ... ok? ! )


I really wonder was in your mind when you read my latest blog ? !
As well as those old blog i wrote..
What really pop out in your mind?!
( mind to share ??)

Well .. for me it is ok for you to read.. Just that hope you will not think too much ..
Oh ya... !! Finally remember what i intend to write last night..

I just want to share with you my first year of audit life in my current company.
Its start on 8.2.2011.
The week after the Chinese New Year.. A good day to start..
However it was not as smooth as i think ..

The team i join was the most stressful team in the company ..
The manager.. a female.. Aunty instead.. old women with bad tamper..\
I was lik.. oh my god!!

My first day was until 10.30 pm in client place and kena called back to office for tomorrow task..
What the hell is it.. First day .. no introduction .. nothing..
Just past me all the stationary and ask me follow them out..
I really did nothing in the client place..
Just a bit casting .. waiting.. casting...
Then they busy with their stuff.. I was lik what am i going to do??
Ask for more? or kept quiet? Surely i asked..
Ended up i being ignore.. I not going to blame them as i know they busy..


Then i start to entertain my self..
Go out walk walk .. fbing... read email..
Hmmm.. what kind of auditor am i .. ahahahahha...

The end of the day, the manager throw me file.. ask me follow last year..
I stun...  What should i do with the file?
I dun even know any person in the company ..
What will going to happen tomorrow??!!
And  my night mare started..
Really a horror one..

All the bad luck seem following me ..
I failed p6.. then every day no mood to work..
scare kena scold... left in darkness...
What the hell is this... AUditor!!??

No... should no be in such a way..
But nothing can be done except accept..
Haiz... I was lik my 21 year old life gone...

Finally i decided concentrate on study first ...
I must PASS P6... no OT is allow..
I start to built out the defend wall .. as higher as possible..

Subsequently i passed...
Its time to focus on work...
Its time to built up my career..
Again.. Too many challenges waiting for me..
I am not good in handling stress.. not good in multitasking.

Well .. obviously ... i failed again in my career..
I completely down.. lost my confidence.. lost all of my fate on work..
That time if you notice... you will find all the emoing words appeared in my fb..

Haizz.. My 21 years life suck ... this what i think in the month of September ..
Subsequently ... YOU ... on and off comment on my emo post in FB...
I was lik why you so busy body ?? you know nothing about that.. so y comment?!..

Then it changes when i met you in the convo.. Hahahahahahaha...
I really have to say fate... all is fate...
Any how ... here is the changes start...

At the month of November 2011..
Appraisal Month.. My manager surely gt bad comment on my overall performance..
Again.. my mood gone...
Then tat time i voice out.. I dun wan Oversea job..
Subsequently i was being transferred out... ( as the portfolio of the team mainly oversea client ) >>.
Its a waste to leave.. bt i really can not take it.. No point..

Well.. I went through a hard time of accepting the transfer..
Luckily my new senior kind enough to accept me ...
She really care me alot.. guide me.. train me...
I was touch.. Warm...Feel lik actually i am not that stupid..
( you sure say i am not ... ^^ )

until here first ya.. wait for your update ..
( ur turn !! )

hahahahahahahaha.... ^^


Friday 6 January 2012

Shock !!

Well..
i apologies for the late update of my blog..
( hahahahaha,... duno what the hell i am sorry for ... you should know it.. =P )


Initially i plan to write this yesterday night as i really got alot thing to include here..
But suddenly one's whatapps msg change all of this.
How should i put it..

You know what is in the msg : ( here you go the real msg i got from e caring friend)

forgot to tell u one thing,  dun push him go sing so hard..Let him decide him self ar..
( i was lik .. what the hell is this msg for?)

Follow by :
caused he got some health problem ah..
seriously speaking lo, if he go sing work , i really a bit worry lo..

Walao ... these msg make me think lik i every second asking him to come sing .. non stop..
I know she got no any other meaning .. it is just a kind reminder..
Any how, my pretty mood of e day totally gone..

Hhahahaha.... i know you sure think i so emotion.
Ya.. i am .. i admit..
I on the spot msg him in the fb of all the negative thinking..
hahahaha
really cannot control it lo...

subsequently it settle..
what does this mean?
So obvious.. he really form an important part of my current life..
I did not say any other thing.. so please dun think too much of this sentence.
hahahaha

Well... initially .. seriously speaking,
I really hope he choose sgp d.
As will be a lot of chance to meet up ..m
Self fish thinking..

But , my final answer surely be the same as in fb ..
Please put the health factor in the first position in making of any of your important decision in ur life.
As life do not take two..
It worth to take few months to rest before join ..( audit line )
As it really a  stressful life.

By the way .. i really happy when u write such kind of blog and my name appear in it..
Hahahahaha... perasan abit..as i always ..
( so get used to it )

I lik the opening and the ending of e blog..
sound lik specially write for me lik tat..
(Again, perasan) >< !!

Thanks and thank .. hahahahahah... as promised.. this one.. e lame one.. hahahhahah^^
( for e one who reading it !!) ^^

Wednesday 4 January 2012

So call friendship between a guy and girl

有種友誼不低於愛情,不叫曖昧,你們可能相愛過,你們也可能喜歡著彼此。
但是,為了什麼原因你們沒能在一起?

也許他為了朋友之間的義氣,不能追你。

也許為了顧及家人的意見,你們沒有在一起。

也許為了自己的前程,他沒有要你等他。

也許你們相遇太早,還不懂得珍惜對方。

也許你們相遇太晚,你們身邊已經有了另一個人。

也許你回頭太遲,對方已不再等待。

也許你們彼此在捉摸對方的心,而遲遲無法跨出界線。

不過即使你們沒在一起,你們還是保持了朋友的關係。
但是你們心底清楚,對這個人,你比朋友還多了一份關心。
每個人這輩子,心中都有過這麽一個特別的朋友,很矛盾的行為。
一開始你不甘心只做朋友,但久了,你會發現這樣是最好的。
你寧願這樣關心他,總好過你們在一起而有天會分手。
你寧願做他的朋友,彼此不會吃醋,才可以真的無所不談。
就算是這樣,你還是知道,他永遠會關心你的。
做不成男女朋友,當他那個特別的朋友,有什麼不好呢?

Monday 2 January 2012

2nd day of 2012



Let summarize e overall mood of e day..


First of all...
Quite Emoing.. 
Keep on thinking on smthg negative..


Well .. i think i should admit something..
I am not that strong..
My mind keep on looking for someone that be relied on..
Looking for someone that can furnish me a sense of secure.. 


Recently sense it from someone.. 
Perhaps.. Mistake made..
It is time to amend e mistake..
As an adult.. Must learn to be independence.


No one are there forever for u ..
Learn to face it.. 
Do not avoid it.. it is useless.
From now onward.. Learn to face e reality ..


I know it is cruel .. its full of danger.. 
Bt its ur life.. 
U have to learn to manage it..
Do always expect any help from others.
Nothing is impossible..
Dono?! Learn..!!!


No one know anything from e day of born..
All have to learn..
Keep learning..
Perhaps its not the smooth one.. 
Bt yet .. do not give up so easily..
Keep trying .. keep going..
As some one said before.. Life will never end as long as you never give up ..


Well.. It is time to learn..
I believe .. you can went through this learning curve.. although it is going be e tough one..
Do not always complain and emoing.. it is USELESS!!..


In stead of wasting time on those non sense thing. 
Why not focus on others thing?
Do not ask what is others thing..
You  should figure out ur self..
As an adult .. dun always expect others to make decision for you..
Learn to make decision.. learn from mistake.. 
Nothing to shame at..


Lastly.. All e best in you first working day tomorrow..
Remember.. Be strong.. Be tough .. Be happy .. Chill.. 



                                                                                                                                      Grey area ( 2/1/12)

Sunday 1 January 2012

Friend blog

Look through one of my friend's blog.. realize there are some posts are applicable here..
So.. Do not mind to share them here..

 一个人的世界:
病了,一个人扛;
烦了,一个人藏;
痛了,一个人挡;
街上,一个人逛;
路上,一个人想;
晚上,一个人的床……
慢慢地习惯了一个人的生活,
变得沉默、变得冷落、没了想理、不想说、不想看……
我不是高傲,也不是胡闹,是厌倦了所有的依靠。


Will you?!

3 months later,
will you still care about me at anytime anywhere?

1/2 year later,
will you still accompany me by my side silently for whole day long?

1 year later,
will you still PUJUK me & tickle me to sleep?

2 years later,
will you still feel nervous when see my tears drops like rain?

3 or 4 years later or more,
will you still have the courages daring to love me, treat me good & well without any reasons like you do now?

 

有时候,莫名的心情不好,不想和任何人说话,只想一个人静静的发呆;
有时候,突然觉得心情烦躁,看什么都觉得不舒服,拼命想寻找一个出口;
有时候,感觉自己与世界格格不入,曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非;
有时候,别人突然对你说,我觉得你变了,然后自己开始百感交集。

Single doesn't mean that you know nothing about love. In fact, being solo is wiser than being in a wrong relationship.
单身并不意味着你不懂爱情,事实上,单身要比陷入一段错误的爱明智得多。

“我想, 如果你有那么一点点喜欢我,就一点点,我也会有勇气去争取,
可是 我也不知道怎么去分辨,生怕、或许 ,我以为的表示 也只是自己的自作多情,
这样的自己就会显得那么的渺小、而力不从心。

当对某人放进了感情,那么在他面前,你就像个神经,会惶恐,不安,患得患失...”

“现在我对你很好,很好,很好,
你不需要,你无所谓,你不在乎,你不珍惜…
当某天你被伤害,想起我。
那时的我在也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的对你好了…
因为那时的我,已经将你放低。
原来,放低一个人,最后是被逼出来的。”

 其实不管你爱过多少人;不管你爱的多么快乐或痛苦;
到最后你不是学会了怎样去爱;而是学会了怎样爱自己。

总有一个地方,一辈子不会再提起,却也一辈子都不会忘记。                                                     总有一个人,一句对不起,让你心痛,刻骨铭心。                                                                         总有一段情,一直住在心里,却告别在生活里。                                                                                                       忘不掉的是回忆,继续的是生活,                                                                                                                                 错过的,就当是路过吧。                                                                                                                           来来往往身边出现了很多人,总有一个位置,一直没有变。                                                                      看看温暖的阳光,偶尔还是会想一想。
如果不是在乎你、喜欢你
我就不会这么在意你,便不会打扰你
你明白吗

如果我不在乎你,我不会在因为你的一句话而为你笑
如果我不在乎你,我不会变得这么脆弱
如果我不在乎你,我不会在意你做的每件事
如果我不在乎你,我不会静静的想着你发呆
如果我不在乎你,我不会记住你说的每句话
如果我不在乎你,我不会要求你这样那样
如果我不在乎你,我不会为你心痛
如果我不在乎你,我不会把事情问出个究竟
如果我不在乎你,我不会总想着听到你的声音哪怕只是一句
如果我不在乎你,我不会自己一人珍惜与你在一起的时刻
哪怕你是无所谓的
如果我不在乎你,我不会总是不由自主的想起你
如果我不在乎你,我不会每天都那么坚持着我的坚持,哪怕是错的
如果我不在乎你,我不会总想着我们的语言傻傻的发笑
如果我不在乎你,我不会这么轻易的让痛苦折磨自己
如果我不在乎你,我不会为了无关重要的小细节跟你争执
如果我不在乎你,我不会经常的胡思乱想让自己陷入两难
如果我不在乎你,我不会在我最软弱的时候
真的支持不住地时候,对你说:“我累了,我很不开心……”
因为那时候的我,真的需要你的关心
哪怕你只是敷衍我

如果我不在乎你,我不会把我所有的事情都告诉你
哪怕是让你觉得枯燥无味,鸡毛蒜皮的小事
我不会把所有的秘密都告诉你
哪怕是最珍贵或是最不堪回首的往事

如果我不在乎你,我不会再次写下长篇大论的文字
甚至让你觉得是废话连篇

我在乎你的时候,而你却不在乎我
我不怪你

我失去的只是一个不在乎我的人,
或者说我从来都没有失去过。
因为你从来不曾在乎我,
而你失去的却是我对你真真正正的关心和在乎。

人生,没有永远的伤痛,没有过不去的坎。还是让我们学学杨柳,看似柔弱却坚韧,狂风吹不断;太刚强的树干,却在风中折枝。学会放弃,学会承受,学会坚强,学会微笑,那是一种别样的美丽!适当的放弃,是人生优雅的转身。”

人生就像一列车,车上总有形形色色的人穿梭往来。你也可能会在车上遇到很多你以为有缘分的人,但是车也会有停下来的时候,总会有人从人生这列车上上下下,当你下去的时候你挥挥手,一转身你能记住的只有回家的路.

每当你无聊的时候,总是会给你短信的那个人,才是关心你的人。不要因为习惯就觉得那是应该的。你应该知道没有事又没有企图,还会给你电话的人不多了,如果聊很久的话你应该懂得为什么。

要时刻记得感恩于那些在人生路上帮助过你的人

如果是朋友、我要你记住:

在我面前、你没有伪装的必要;你没逞强的需要。
朋友这是一辈子的事。不管什么时候、你感到难受。不要一个人去承受。请你告诉我、我陪你。
在你需要帮助或想找人倾诉的时候、找我。我帮你。
在你想哭的时候、找我。我给你肩膀。大不了洗衣服呗!呵呵
在你不爽想喝酒的时候、找我。我陪你耍酒疯。
在你半夜寂寞的时候找我。我陪你说话。
在你觉得没人相信你的时候、告诉我。我信你。


请不要觉得自己是没人关心的孩子。我要你知道:不管怎样、我一直都在。
在我心里、时间和距离跟本磨灭不了我们之间的感情。不要跟我说陌生这些令我恍惚的词汇。我会难受。真的。我只要你知道。我从未离开.........


This following post will be the classic one: 

 我不是碰不到更好的,而是因为已经有了你,我不想再碰到更好的;
我不是不会对别人动心,而是因为已经有了你,我就觉得没必要再对其他人动心;
我不是不会爱上别的人,而是我更加懂得珍惜你,能在一起不容易,已经选定的人就不要随便放手;
即使你不是最好的,甚至不是最适合我的,但却是我最珍惜的;
世界上好的人数不清,但遇到你就已经足够。缺点可以改正,性格可以磨合。但机会失去了就再也没有了。
现在想想为什么那么多在激情之后变平淡了的感情能一步步坚持到最后。除了已经习惯,爱到深处之外,应该还有两个人的互相搀扶,不离不弃吧!
多了一份牵挂,多了一份思念!从不肯说想念你的我也开始想念彼此,不想太依赖你的我也开始互相依偎。
爱一个人不容易,只爱一个人更不容易,至少至今的我存于一丝丝的期盼,相信彼此能坚守!
为什么?
因为:我已经选择了你,你叫我怎么放弃? 

Follow by e sad one: 

如果有一天,你走进我的心里,你会哭,
因为里面全是你...
如果有一天,我走进你的心里,我也会哭,
也许你那里没有我...

原来的一切,
都是场误会!

其实发生的,
都只是误会!

经历了的是什么?
是那场...
恐怖的误会!


Imagination: 
我不冷漠,
只是没有你所期待的热情!
我是善良的,
但也有一部分的邪恶!
我相信爱,
但你得接受每个人爱的能力都有限!
我经常说谎,
但以下是诚实的!
你对我的期待 其实都来自想象,
如果你失望了 这些我都会检讨,
但我不会让自己困在自责里,
因为那是想象骗了你!
你应该知道 只要是想象
就有一般的几率是假的!
所以
别总是在想象、遐想...
只要肯问,
就必定会得到答案! 




Until here first.. Caused if i continue.. some one will tot i gone crazy and start worrying ( guessing only ) ....

Sorry

How stupid am i to write such thing in my blog..
express myself.. ended up regret to e max...

I really a good thinker..
I really good in imagination..
Well .. no harm to my self..

Be honest to my own feeling.,
Say wat ever i want to say..
No conceal .. no lie.. no cheating..

This kind of thing can not exist in the real world..
As the world is cruel .. danger ...
Just remain in my own area..
I can do wat ever i lik ..
Emo.. angry .. sad... cry .. happy..
whenever ,, what ever.. whoever.. whenever..

As least this is within my control ..




人这一辈子,开心也是一天,不开心也是一天,让我们从快乐开始!                                         做你想做的,爱你想爱的。                                                                                                                 记住该记住的,忘记该忘记的。                                                                                                         改变能改变的,接受不能改变的。                                                                                                      我们可以淡然面对,可以积极的把握。                                                                                             不要去过份地苛求,不要有太多的奢望。                                                                                                   做好你能做的每一件事,珍惜你身边的每一个人。                                                                                   人生苦短,珍惜!珍重!


我怀念的不是过去那个人,只是过去的那段回忆罢了。
即使我们再好,也只是聊聊..                                                                                                            果你不能对我好一辈子,请你不要对我好,哪怕只是一秒钟;                                                                如果你不能骗我一辈子,请你不要骗我,哪怕只是一个字;                                                         如果你不能爱我一辈子,请你不要爱我,哪怕只是一瞬间。
不要在乎别人的看法,别人做什么想什么,是别人的事,                                                             人应该有自己的思想和主见,爱情也是。
爱情最折磨的不是别离,而是感动的回忆,让人很容易站在原地以为还回得去”

So BE RESPONSIBLE TO YOUR OWN LIFE!!.
There is no  second chance in e world..
There is no "IF" in the world..

                                                                                                                                                          Pris
                                                                                                                                                      2.1.2012

Just because i am not tat girl you like...

因为我不是你最喜欢的人。

     所以你可以心血来潮的时候发短信打电话嘘寒问暖,但当我真的想你时,你却不会在我身边。

     因为我不是你最喜欢的人。

     所以高兴时你会让我觉得我是世界上最幸福的人,让我以为那就是爱情;不开心的时候,全世界都和你有联系,除了我,因为我不是你最喜欢的人,所以我不能帮你分担你的难过。

    
      因为我不是你最喜欢的人。

     所以对于你来说,你来找我时,我必须得出现,但我在找你时,我却是不能打扰你的那个存在。


     因为我不是你最喜欢的人。

     所以我的去向,我的生活你只有在你想要过问时问问,我却视若珍宝,满心欢喜,到头来都是自欺欺人。


     因为我不是你最喜欢的人。

     所以就算我们在一起了,我也不能过问你以前的,现在的,未来的,种种的想法。
     因为我不是你最喜欢的人。

     所以和我的联系只出现在你想要的范围内。
     因为我不是你最喜欢的人。

     所以就算是在一起还要当做暧昧来存在。

     因为我不是你最喜欢的人。

     所以我们的很多事情都不能公开。

     因为我不是你最喜欢的人。

     所以我们随时都可能分开,而不需要理由。

     因为我不是你最喜欢的人。

     但你是我最爱的人。

     所以,只能有我爱你,却不能有你爱我出现。

     因为我不是你最喜欢的人,但你却是我喜欢的人。

     所以,我们之间不完全的公平也不存在。
     所有的一切,都只因为,我不是你最喜欢的人。


Finaly here come e 2012..
This is the first blog in my 2nd year of adult life..

I realise what i did in last year are stupid and useless.
Please do not repeat the same mistake again in this year.
Remember.. Do not do whatever which do not serve any purpose..

Be your self.. find your own way..
It does not really matter how people treat you..
Most important is learn to love yourself..

In stead of caring others which do not bring any return..
Why not keep those care and love for your self..
Do not be so silly any more.

Not every one appreciate your effort..
Why keep on hurting yourself..
They not deserve your love ..
You not deserve be treated in such a way..

There is a saying..
Change your self ... e world will change..
so .. by caring others .. other will care you?!
Do not be so stupid la..
Feel lik crying? Go ahead...
Make sure after that.. you back to normal..
As i said before.. you have to be strong even you r not..
Weak and failure is not an option for you ..
Please take note of it..



First movie in 2012..
First movie that i watched alone..
DO it indicate something?
Will it indicate i will be having this kind of life this year?


That kind of feel .. new to me bt yet it mean smthg to me..
Adult life.. is make to be lonely ..
Others is others.. you is you..
Please differentiate it clearly ..

Do not expect any thing from others.
You should determine your own life..
Not others...
Remember always..
Be e  owner of your emotions. not the other ways.

不要轻易把伤口揭开给别人看,因为别人看的是热闹,而痛的却是自己。
不望着会令你流泪的东西,那是唯一可以不流泪的方法


过自己喜欢的日子,是最好的日子。活自己喜欢的活法,是最好的活
遇到了一些事,他们问你‘没事吧?’

你勉强支起一个笑容说‘我没事。’
他们好像放心了,继续说着有的没的,不再问了。
只有你知道,其实,你有事。
也不是没有人看穿你的假装,他们说‘嘿,别逞强了,我知道你有事。’
你只能苦笑着摇摇头,假装无所谓已经成了你的习惯。
你早就不知道怎么说,怎么表达你的难过。
你曾看过一句话,说‘向别人诉说你的难过,是会损耗别人的能量。’
你更不愿意了,不愿意麻烦别人。
身边总有那些人,他们总是擅长表达自己。
摔倒了就哭,总有人扶;你却只会拍拍腿说‘没事、不痛。’
选举关键的时候激动的掉眼泪,得到了多数人的同情;你却只会笑着说‘没事,大不了重来。’
遇到失败了,难过之极,总有人安慰 ;你却只会一脸无所谓‘没事,我不在乎。’
于是总有人围着他们转,问着问那,唯恐再次心情不好。
你也不是没有羡慕过他们。
可是始终无法做到那样。
但是你知道,你的背后总有人会支持,总有人能一眼看穿你的难过。
他们心疼你的坚强,却是无能为力。
所以,记得。你选择坚强,就要知道你必须学着一个人


All the best in year 2012..
Good luck .....